Paper Bags and Plastic Hearts
I know, I know, it’s been ages since I’ve updated anything. I didn’t even update for the site’s 3rd birthday, which was Monday. I’ve just been ridiculously busy, and it has kinda sorta sucked.
I got a job re-designing a website, which has kept me quite busy these past few weeks. The site isn’t quite finished yet, but you can check out what I’ve done at http://www.michellemalsbury.com. Besides that, I’ve been tied up with social things - hey, it’s summer—and just haven’t had time for the site. I’ve already had a plethora of adventures this summer, and I don’t intend to stop anytime soon. But, sadly that does mean the poor website has been neglected. The site’s third birthday did not, however, go completely uncelebrated, as you can see.
My last post seemed quite … emotional, and stupid. Since then, I’ve put a lot of thought into everything that has, is supposed to, and will happen, and reached a conclusion—no matter what happens, it’s not the end of the world, not even close. Yeah, tons of things are going to change going into next year, but all that means is that I’ve got to cherish what I have while I still have it. Especially when it comes to the people I’m blessed to share my life with.
This fall, when school starts, I’m starting the year without some of the people who mean the most to me. One of them has been one of my closest friends these past few years, and I’ve always been able to tell her anything. Whether it’s been my infatuation with her neighbor, rolling my ankles on her lawn, or just having someone to talk to and doodle with in Math, we’ve been through a lot, and I’m gonna miss her like crazy. Another is like my sister. She prettymuch lives at my house, and I don’t know what I’d do without her sometimes. Granted, at times we have our spats and sometimes she annoys the hell out of me, but I love her to death. I think it’s incredibly unfair of her to switch schools on me, but it’s not up to me. Then there’s this one kid, one I never would have met if it weren’t for some very awkward help, that I’m so glad I met. I haven’t known him for very long, but I’m still gonna miss him like crazy. We’ve had some of the most amazing conversations ever, and he always puts up with my weirdness, even when he doesn’t understand it. I’m gonna miss all of them, even though some aren’t really going anywhere, and I really don’t know what I’m going to do without them… I guess I’ll just have to wait and see.
Hopefully everything will continue to work itself out this summer, but I really don’t know. I do know, however, that life is like a diving board. You close your eyes, hold your breath, jump, and hope for the best.
